Alien Landscape

post break up

there was only one gasp and two nonchalant reactions.

the gasp came from Siti of course who, like myself never thought Firry and i would be anything but OK. Siti helped a lot. she was distant but concerned. she watched quietly as i cried and then proceeded to recite an account of her day with comforting joy. if there is one principle that girl lives by, it is never to dwell on bad things.

so we didn't. we laughed and bullied kids and hung out with the rest and had trips to Holland Village wearing dirty clothes and still feeling comfortable among prissy ang mohs with their sunshine kids. then she reprimanded silly Aurelia who was used by Firry to satisfy his emotional and physical desires, and it all went fine. i didn't hate her because she's just a kid. barely 16. a frickin minor.

Siti and i tried our best not to call her slutbag because of that.

of course there's Hasini to whom i always send text messages if anything went wrong because she's sweet and tries to be logical and strives to be fair and at the same time secretly bitter. Hasini's one of my favourite girls, really, but don't tell her. she doesn't do well with flattery.

Amy smoked and smoked. and smoked some more until it felt like PSI when over a hundred. Amy is actually May of course. i'm using her real name now because it annoys her. Amy is just a necessary presence. i was insulted for being morose about a mere break up and mocked for being a "believer of love", whatever that meant. in that shifty eyed way of hers, she muttered you'll be fine lah. then a pause. and she added, ------g moron.

so all in all, though Fir and i are not OK, at least i am.
Posted by NHJ 11/07/2006 11:17:00 am

Tuesday, November 07, 2006