Alien Landscape

boys and/or girls

ok randomness.

Fir's armpits smell like girls.

or is it just my obsessive aesthetic attraction to ladies mingles with the sexual attraction to inaccessible frail articulate men-boys with gay tendencies?

am i doomed to forever have crushing crushes on random girls and fall hard for the same boys! LE GASP. am i bisexual? it cannot be! girls only turn me on emotionally. i feel unreasonably protective of them. that shouldn't count.

i've realised that all the boys, except Hidayat, i've had major lovey feelings for are either androgynous or effeminate. Khai was emo and emo is gay, Fir is twice as emo and therefore twice as gay, Dzul is the Shakespearean drama club boy who likes to wear tights, Isti looked like a masculine version of Siti Roslinda (and i love Siti Roslinda. ok weird), Khairul has silly curly hair and speaks like an exaggerated genteel gentleman and Rudy is thin and has model-esque feminine features.

and not to forget,

Fir's armpits smell like girls.

and i am mad for loving that girl armpit smell.

conclusion. i love ladies as ladies and the inner ladies in men, and my feelings for men are that of grudging respect, intellectual envy and most importantly, irresistable lust.

all in all, i am perfectly normal and ambiguously heterosexual.

blah.

Posted by NHJ 3/28/2007 04:33:00 pm

Wednesday, March 28, 2007