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Thursday, October 07, 2004

i gave Hawk Eternal to F. it was painful but i like seeing him happy. i don't usually make him happy deliberately. it is usually incidental. i would say something and he would suddenly laugh out loud and grin at me. it confused me for a while but i am starting to see the pattern. it is not something i can describe. it is like a familiar intricate wedge in the wall.
i like the sound of him laugh. it feels like pillows. giant sky blue pillows pressing against my cheek. i like gazing at him as he laughs, feel his back move under my palm. i can feel his happiness then. and for a while, i am assured.



Posted by NHJ 10/07/2004 09:41:00 pm