Alien Landscape

my grandmother drifts lost in the future.

this month she will be left alone in a cuboid HDB flat unit, cushioned in suffocation between strange Chinese neighbours while her daughter goes off on vacation with her family. the poor old woman is obviously feeling very lonesome. she would cook all kinds of dishes alone in that empty house and then when she's done, she would take the MRT all the way to our place to give the dishes to us.
being not much of a conversationalist, she would sit there quiet and temporarily relieved by the little flickers of company. she would gaze at my sister or brother silently, mutely loving and trying in vain to make jokes out of Western TV shows they are constantly watching.

it's like she has nothing more to give but love [in a immeasurable quantities yet nothing in return] and nothing else to do but wander around this soulless country waiting for something she doesn't really want. i wish there is something i can do. something for my grandmother.
Posted by NHJ 6/07/2004 07:16:00 pm

Monday, June 07, 2004